矛盾的心情－藍天 * ` __

自MICHAEL死後,已很少用自己的文字寫日記,因為心情之差令我連打字的心情也沒有......大多日記也是轉貼的,其一是不用自己打,其二是我覺得那些文章真的寫得太好了,令我不得不貼在自己的BLOG內,興大家一起分享我們的心情......那為何今晚會忽然自己打日記呢?因為今晚我這矛盾的心情實在找不到一篇文章來表達,只好自己寫了-.-

August 18, 2009, 10:30 am Burial Plans for Michael Jackson Are Announced By Dave Itzkoff

Michael Jacksonwill be buried on Aug. 29, the date that would have been his 51stbirthday, publicists for the Jackson family said on Tuesday morning ina news release. The announcement confirms remarks made earlier thisweek by Mr. Jackson’s father, Joe Jackson, who said in interviews that the singer would be laid to rest on that date.
In its release, the publicity firm Sunshine, Sachs & Associatessaid that Michael Jackson would be buried on Aug. 29 at 10 a.m. PacificDaylight Time, at Holly Terrace in the Grand Mausoleum at GlendaleForest Lawn Memorial Park in Glendale, Calif. The release said that theburial ceremony would private and limited to the Jackson family andclose friends, but that there would be nearby accommodations for thenews media. The Jackson family added that it “once again wishes toexpress its gratitude to Michael’s fans around the world for theirsupport during these difficult times.”
Mr. Jackson died on June 25 after suffering cardiac arrest, though the Los Angeles County coroner’s office has not yet released the results of its investigation into his death. The singer was honored at a public memorial held on July 7 at the Staples Center in Los Angeles.

http://artsbeat.blogs.nytimes.com/2009/08/18/burial-plans-for-michael-jackson-are-revealed/

Michael Jackson -- Burial AnnouncedPosted Aug 18th 2009 10:10AM by TMZ Staff
The spokesman for the Jackson family says Michael Jackson will be laid to restat Holly Terrace in the Great Mausoleum at Glendale Forest LawnMemorial Park on Saturday, August 29 at 10 AM. That would have beenMichael's 51st birthday.

The ceremony will be limited to family and close friends.

http://www.tmz.com/2009/08/18/michael-jackson-burial-announced/

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MJ's Final Resting Place -- No Visitors, PleasePosted Aug 18th 2009 10:20AM by TMZ Staff
If you're planning on going to Michael Jackson's burial site at Forest Lawn Memorial Park and dropping off some flowers, think again -- the mausoleum where he's being buried on August 29 isn't open to the public.

The Great Mausoleum -- where stars like Clark Gable and Jean Harlowwere laid to rest -- is considered a private area, where only propertyowners and family members are allowed to go. It's monitored by securitycameras to catch any trespassers who snoop around.

Graceland, it is not.
http://www.tmz.com/2009/08/18/mjs-final-resting-place-no-visitors-please/

From ForestLawn.com

With its architectural inspiration coming from the world-famous Campo Santo in Genoa, Italy, the Great Mausoleum has been called the "New World's Westminster Abbey" by Time Magazine. Shown here is Memorial Terrace, the entrance to the Last Supper Window and the Memorial Court of Honor, where exact reproductions of the greatest works of Michelangelo are on display.

昨晚知道了這個消息後,心情彷彿一下子又回到了6月26日以及7月8日,那種銳心的痛再次襲來,原本已平復的傷口又再一次的裂開,血水慢慢的滲出來...很痛很痛,很難受,呼吸一下子變得困難,要不停的深呼吸......這次是真的真的要永別了,再也看不到那最純真的也最甜蜜的笑容了,聽不到那天瀨般的歌喉了,我很不捨......但同一時間,我又感到很放心,好像千斤重的石頭終於都放下了,因為這是一個很美麗很美麗的地方,MICHAEL終於可以好好的睡上一覺而不伯被人騷擾了,這里是不對外開放的,也就是說那些媒體不能入內再對MICHAEL做些甚麼了.....但這也代表了身為FANS的我們也不能入內到MICHAEL的墓前憑弔,獻花了><天知道這是我的夢想呀,真希望能在有生之年可以到他的墓前鞠躬,感謝他帶給了我們多麼寶貴的財富...並告訴他我有多麼的愛他......雖然現在我們不能到他的墓前了,但只要我有能力,我都一定會到美國去探望他,那怕只是在 ForestLawn的牆外,我相信MICHAEL會感受到的......

起初最不能接受的是下葬的日子,為何偏偏要選在他的生日,那天到底該懷著怎樣的心情度過???但後來看到了MJJC的網友說

"Your physical body came to the earth on your birthday, it endured so much pain throughout your life, and finally your body gets the much needed rest it has so desired, on its birthday.

I know his spirit (if you all believe in that) has already gotten to rest, but now his body can find that same joy in it's final resting place.

Which indeed is beautiful, I wish we could see inside to see how lavish it is. "

對呀,我們就是在生日的那天來到這世上,現在,MICHAEL的肉身也在這天重回大地的懷抱,這有甚麼不好呢?反正無論是生日也好,下葬也好,8月29日永遠都是屬於MICHAEL JACKSON的日子,這便足夠了,那天,就讓我們都懷著開心的心情為MICHAEL祝壽,並替他終於可以好好休息而感到安慰吧!我相信這是MICHAEL樂於看見的~

還記得他最喜愛的一首歌嗎?那首他興兒女一起時經常哼的: SMILE THOUGH YOUR HEART IS ACHING, SMILE EVEN THOUGH IT'S BREAKING......

就算怎樣難過,我們都要笑著來面對,就算怎樣心痛,也要笑著說再見,就算怎樣想流淚,也要笑著哭(雖然我知那會很醜樣)......這才是MICHAEL最想看見的,我們不要令他擔心~

MICHAEL JACKSON是誰?
他是矛盾的混合體
有型中不失可愛
剛陽中不失溫柔
羞澀中不失性感
俊俏中不失女性美
聲音可高可低
身處濁世卻仍有一顆純潔的心
這世上再也找不到這樣的一個人

身為這樣一個人的FANS,怎能輕易便被心碎所打敗,我們要堅強,堅強到足以令MICHAEL驕傲,他擁有一群多麼特別的歌迷呀!!!

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今天雖然很沮喪,但也有一件事令我精神為之一振,就是我在AMAZON UK訂的書終於都送到了......分別是DANCING THE DREAM, THE Visual Documentary 和 Michael Jackson - Legend, Hero, Icon: A Tribute to the King of Pop,先來一張圖,其它後補